This week we looked at the Father Heart of God and looked at what a relationship with the Father is suppose to look like. The biggest thing that was revealed to me about my relationship with God is that is has been about the chase. The pattern my life has taken is to search after God and find out who He is but the moment I feel Him working on my heart, my heart hardens to Him. So this week was a really e
motional week for me because the first day I could feel my heart hardening and it was a constant battle just to keep my mind focussed on the lesson. Then on Wednesday I was just so exhausted from this constant fight that I stayed in bed and cried. As I laid there God reminded me of the verse he has given me last week, which was Romans 8. As I read over it again God showed me a new meaning to this. He showed me that I was getting my knowledge of who I was from other sources rather than listening to His voice. Then I looked back at Adam and Eve and the tree of knowledge and how God asked Adam, “Who told you that you were naked?” I realized that Adam had chosen to believe another voice that said that he should be ashamed before God but God is saying come to me and I will give you freedom. I think that too often we believe the other voice that tells us who we are and don’t go to our Father who is not distant and angry, but is a 
complete expression of love. On Friday I was so tired and fed up that I didn’t even want to go to class but I went and I am so glad that I did. We spent the day just waiting on the Father and at the end of the class we got to go to the speaker and get a Fathers blessing. As they were praying for me someone grabbed my arm really hard and they said “He has got you!” That moment I just felt my heart soften and my mind was silent all the worry was gone. Knowing God is so much better that the chase. Being able to ask the question, “who am I?” knowing that I will get the answer is an amazing gift. Don’t be afraid to know God because He is so excited for the day that you choose Him and let Him show you the world.
motional week for me because the first day I could feel my heart hardening and it was a constant battle just to keep my mind focussed on the lesson. Then on Wednesday I was just so exhausted from this constant fight that I stayed in bed and cried. As I laid there God reminded me of the verse he has given me last week, which was Romans 8. As I read over it again God showed me a new meaning to this. He showed me that I was getting my knowledge of who I was from other sources rather than listening to His voice. Then I looked back at Adam and Eve and the tree of knowledge and how God asked Adam, “Who told you that you were naked?” I realized that Adam had chosen to believe another voice that said that he should be ashamed before God but God is saying come to me and I will give you freedom. I think that too often we believe the other voice that tells us who we are and don’t go to our Father who is not distant and angry, but is a 
complete expression of love. On Friday I was so tired and fed up that I didn’t even want to go to class but I went and I am so glad that I did. We spent the day just waiting on the Father and at the end of the class we got to go to the speaker and get a Fathers blessing. As they were praying for me someone grabbed my arm really hard and they said “He has got you!” That moment I just felt my heart soften and my mind was silent all the worry was gone. Knowing God is so much better that the chase. Being able to ask the question, “who am I?” knowing that I will get the answer is an amazing gift. Don’t be afraid to know God because He is so excited for the day that you choose Him and let Him show you the world.
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