More then Conquerors

Have you ever had those nights that you are so tired that all you want to do is hit the pillow and instantly fall asleep? Well tonight was one of those nights, but it’s also one of those nights that the moment your mind is finally silenced, God speaks so loud and clear that there is no way that you are going to get that long awaited sleep until you put what God is say down on paper or tell someone. So for the sake of my sanity, I want to share what God has been speaking to me since I got off the plane home and hope that it encourages you.

It all started with Psalm 1

"Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked, or stand in the way of sinners, or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and in his law he meditates day and night. HE IS LIKE A TREE PLANTED BY STREAMS OF WATER, WHICH YEILDS ITS FRUIT IN SEASON. AND WHO’S LEAF DO NOT WITHER. WHATEVER HE DOES PROSPERS... for the Lord watches over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will parish.”

What God has shown me is that we can be joyful in every season of our life.
Not long after coming home from DTS I drifted from God and thought that it was because I was no longer surrounded by ahhhmazing- God focussed pretty people lol. Difficulties that I am sure you all know, started to arise. I became angry, frustrated and bitter towards God. As my situation went from bad to really bad I caved in and seriously wanted to move up north. I was broken, crying out for God and showed me that He does not need a crowd or require the right surroundings but rather demand a humble, broken, contrite heart.

I had fallen so far from God that it seemed not even His grace was near me.
I spent the next day in Ottawa trying to get my RCMP check with no luck. After giving up I went home. I was pulling into my driveway I saw my friends car. My friend felt that God wanted him to come and encourage me. He started to speak truth, it brought much need conviction and for the first time I saw my situation through the perspective that God is always good and faithful and stopped defining God by my circumstances.

One thing that my friend said that stood out to me was that if you can’t feel God then it’s probably because He is where He wants YOU to be, therefore MOVE!

My friend left and I went to my room and silenced my mind and heart and wanted to hear what God was saying. I remember the moment that I surrendered. I said, “I give up, I don’t want to be where you aren’t. If this means that I serve coffee at a job I dread going to everyday then I’ll do it. I refuse to live one more day without the peace that I am exactly where you want me.” To be honest I really grieved the loss of my self-ambition but I needed to move in the direction of humility and complete surrender to the will of God.

I knew God still wants me to go back to staff but I didn’t know how but it was going to be God’s way and God’s glory.

After my heart was corrected things started to just happen. I had finally found a place in Ottawa that did RCMP checks and only five days after I received it in the mail! Also, I had to change the date of my flight (for the 2nd time) and instead of having to cost me money I found a cheaper flight that is actually going to save me money!

I’m not all the way there yet but I know that it IS going to happen. I will not be discouraged but empowered. The miracle is not that God will take you out of tough situations but that God is with you from beginning to end using it to mould and grow you.

We are created to be more than conquerors!