Awakening

This week is all about hearing the voice of God. I was so excited to start this week because this has been something I have been struggling with for a couple of months now. How do I know that it is really God and not my own thoughts? And one of the best things that I have picked up so far is that it’s so easy and all you have to do is have faith that He wants to talk to you to share His heart for you. I have learned that I have to take the time to get into the Word and to really EXPECT God to speak. A really neat exercise that we did was to read a scripture and to underline words that really jumped out at us and after doing this exercise I noticed that it really started to mean something to me, that it wasn’t just words that I would read over. It allowed me to digest what was happening in the passage and to really feel the meaning behind it. I also realized the importance of living out the word of God. I want to know how Jesus had amazing faith, how He healed people, how He spoke to God and just how he lived his life so that I can do what He did. There are tons of great books on how to hear the voice of God or how to heal the sick but they are just perspectives and interpretations of what the bible says so why not gain your own perspective and to hear from God first hand to see how He wants you to do amazing things. The scripture that I am constantly reminded of is draw near to Him and He will draw near to you. It is that simple. God desires to speak to me and to be in relationship with me to know my opinion. What a great God that waits patiently as we live life and He is just waiting for us to come to Him so He can share His dreams for us.
So as I started asking God to revile what has been blocking me from hearing His voice and I hear guilt. I had no idea that this was even a part of me but at God continued to speak to me I really began to see how much I had been controlled by it. So I was soaking for a bit but I had to go back to class. Our speaker was sick so we decided to start and put what we have learned into practise. So we broke into small groups and started praying over each other. As we were praying someone got a word for me that they saw me in armour fighting this dragon and I ended up slaying this dragon and I said, “that was easy.” In that instant I had conformation from God that what I had heard earlier was Him. This was God telling me that I am to seek Him for strength and to lean on Him when I am burdened. So here I am a mess with blood shot eyes and so emotional over something that an hour ago I had no idea I was dealing with. I could have went my whole life wondering why God’s voice was so distant when all I had to do was ask, “Lord help me see what holds me back from you.” God’s heart is to talk with us about everything. He wants to be the one you go to when your heart is shattered. We were asked to pray for a scripture for what we wanted God to do with us in this time of growth and before I even got here I knew what it was, “Wake O’ sleeper, rise from the dead and Christ will shine on you.” I had no clue that it would be this fast, we are only in our second week and God has already started to work in me and tear down the walls of my heart. The picture I have is Jesus always next to me excited to get closer to my heart and I am so overwhelmed by His presence and grace. God is so good!