Day 3

Day 3
As I had time to think yesterday and I was asking God why we had grown so far apart He showed me my jezebel spirit. I had taken His word and His commandants and had changed it to suit me. I had changed them so that I would be comfortable with them and it would be easy. I had found a way to justify my actions and through that I was not after what God sees as righteous. With my friends I had compromised with what I believed in and did things that I had recognized as sin but though my own justification made it alright. I started drinking with my friends saying that as long as I didn’t get drunk that I was okay, or joking about my faith and not taking it seriously. So it started when I was listening to Corey Russell’s sermon Raising up Prophets and he started speaking about the Jezebel spirit in the church and in the youth, I felt such conviction. He will not compromise His kingdom for the one I have built. So I turn it over to you God. I want to be right with God. I want to see what He sees, and I want my heart to break with Him. God is good. He had to take me around the world to hear His voice again, but that is one thing about my Father, He will do what it takes. If this was the only reason for this journey that it was so worth it but I know that his work in me has just started. I can feel him slowly taking layers off my heart.
1 Kings 16

later that day...
While worshiping this morning God really took me to the next level in worship. Worship is not about chasing a feeling; it’s about honouring God and declaring Him as King. It is really the most holy act that us as sinners can do to honour Him. It’s not about me! AMEN! So I won’t worry about if someone can hear my pitchy voice or if I say the wrong words, I will sing from the heart. What a sweet, sweet sound... Even as I re-read what I have written it is what I have been taught but it just feels like I finally get it?